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Love it or loathe it, it’s that time of year again. It’s
time to find out who’s trying to be who now. “She”, though it obviously seems
humanly possible, became a bigger more annoying twit than before. It’s time to
find out if “she” will settle down, or continue being ME. If “she” will stay hating
me and yet still see my identical clothes, earrings, necklaces, bags, dresses worn
on her body every time I post a picture, then oh gosh this person’s behavior is
really some obsessed-over-me thing.

It’s often said that no matter the truth, people see what
they want to see. Now, the question is have you ever been idolized? Or in
layman’s term been imitated by someone from head to toe? Girls hate too much,
they stare at you up and down, gossip every detail of your actions, discriminate
and however within less than a week or so you’ll ask yourself, “wait, those
clothes look familiar, is she trying to be me?!” A particular girl loves to
hate me. Though these are the things only “bitter” girls would do, it’s still good
to be idolized by someone especially if “that” person is only known for hating you
ever since she met you or heard about you. Trying to be someone you’re not- you
trying to be me, started as a compliment in the past but as time passed by I
realized that “she” already turns out be as annoying as what she’s been trying
to do- COPYING.

I thought you actually hate me but buying comparable things
such as mine does not really accord to what you’ve been saying. What you’re
showing me is more on “LOVE-the-things-she-buys-and-does”. With that, thank you for
loving me. LOL!

The relationship between girls is strong but every so often
don’t you normally see girls saying how jealous they are from other girls they
know? Some might admit that they actually hate her and that but some, are plain
born plastics who in reality just hate to admit that they love everything about
her.

I know it’s not good to label someone but yes “YOU” are a certified
copycat. You want me to prove it? Actually it’s not necessary coz we can all
see clearly now that, you already did.

NO OFFENSE but tamaan na ang dapat tamaan!

For the past 6 months, someone has been exerting great
effort, dedicating a huge part of her time in stalking. The moment they found a
way to ruin my life and took advantage of me, they used my weakness against me,
my family and Enrico. They used me to destroy someone else’s friendship and
they used my boyfriend to divert their burden.

Since some people are keeping their eyes shut and ears that
are unwilling to listen, I can’t do anything about it anymore. My boyfriend
Enrico and I already did everything to prove that we have NOTHING to do with
this sh*t and we are the victims here. To those people who kept on judging us
for whatever stories you heard from someone or somebody that isn’t really
INVOLVED in our case, I still and will respect your decision if you chose to believe
those lies or gossips. For other people this may be MY fault but what can I do,
the story you’ve heard only came from ONE SIDE of the whole story that isn’t
really confirmed or proven genuine.

This goes out to everybody, if you happen to receive
anything, a message on friendster, an offline message on ym, a text message
that sez that it’s from me, before you judge me, KINDLY find time to ASK FIRST if
I was the one who sent and said those things about you. We all know about my
case and with that we must broaden our thoughts that someone MIGHT be using MY
name since sinisira nga nila ako DIBA? If you knew naman na that DID NOT came
from me, PAKI sabe naman sa ibang tao na HINDI nakaka alam na HINDI AKO un
kundi ang nanggugulo sakin ang may pakana ng lahat ng toh para WALANG NASISIRA
SATIN. Hindi ko kayo inaano at wala akong ginagawa laban sa inyo so ang lahat
ng kung anu mang natatanggap ninyo AY HINDI GALING SAKIN. Hindi masisira at
madadamay ang pangalan ninyo kung hindi ninyo pilit na sinasali ang sarili
ninyo sa buhay ng ibang taong alam nio namang walang pakeelam sa inyo!

I just wanna make it CLEAR TO EVERYBODY that we are NOT the
ones who involved your names in the Nacino-Romero case; it is the person na
patuloy na nanggugulo samin. If your name was mentioned and have been included
in this situation, WAG KAME ang sisihin ninyo dahil SILA ANG PILIT NA NAGBABANGGIT
AT NAGSASALI NG MGA PANGALAN NINYO! Let me ask you one question, if not because
of us, would you even know na may nagamit at naninira sa pangalan ninyo?! YOU
SHOULD BE THANKING US yet kayo pa ang galit?! If kame nagbibintang do you think
MAGTATANONG PA KAME?! Hell no, you should have been in jail right now.

Bottom line is: Because of the things that happened, people
have judged, criticized me and specially my boyfriend in which they used his
name para palabasing boyfriend ko ang may pakana ng lahat ng yun. So now that
we have our suspects, now that this case is under the premises of the court let
me introduce to you myself again just like before they messed up my life, I am
Yvonne Coeli P. Romero the same only a lot more stronger, together with the man
who stood all the way with me, proved himself from the judgment of everybody
specially to those didn’t even bother to listen, his name is Enrico Raphael
Nacino will still be TOGETHER.

Sa mga taong humusga, nanakit, nangiwan, namahiya at
nagsalita ng hindi magaganda tungkol samin dahil sa mga nakita ninyo may tanong
ako para sa inyo: “Kayo ba merong boyfriend/girlfriend na ganito? Na kahit sa
kaduluduluhang paraan gagawin parin para lang mapatunayan na totoong MAHAL KA
NIA?! Kung meron kayong ganyan, cge patuloy ninyo kameng husgahan pero kung
wala? MAMATAY KAYO SA INGGIT!

To the one who’s been doing all this, hindi na kita
papanagalan, alam niyo na

mali

ang pangtitrip na ginawa ninyo dahil nakasakit kayo ng pamilya ng ibang tao at
higit sa lahat alam ninyo kung sino KAYO.

My boyfriend and I, together with our families plus the
guidance of our school WILL make sure that this person experiences the SAME
feeling she gave us when she was doing all her/his bad intentions towards us. ONE
WRONG MOVE and we will make sure malalaman mo ang dapat mong kalagyan. DAPAT
NAMILI KA NG GAGAGUHIN.

Wish you all the best, hanggat kaya mo magtago ka na. Oo
binabalaan kita. Bakit papalag ka?!

“You may be done with us, but we’re not done with you."-bill kim on prison break

I’ve decided to enroll
at an educated school, dreamt of making a name on my own, to stand out on every
crowd, and excel beyond ones expectations.

I am suffering so
much right now that I myself know that I don’t deserve to be treated and to be
judge like this. With what a stupid stranger did and through his/her help, my true
friends proved something, they/he/she made me realize the difference between the
“real” and just-the-available and because I have enough enemies, I am still
lucky coz my list too is filled up with “the real ones”.

Being stabbed in
the back with your secrets/private things? Traitors who know everything about
your soul, backstabber’s who exactly know where to hit and make it hurt most, everything
is really possible. Your closest friends, the ones you trusted can just use
every little piece of information against you.

Is it really worth
the trouble? To be nice when all people want/do is to break your soul? To the
person/people who’s been doing all this talk sh*ts about me, to you who’s been
researching every single thing that surrounds me, for you who gives soo much importance to me, to the one who has this huge interest in me, to the one who kept on spending
time ruining my life, for you who just kept on making up stories and spreading
those lies, I have five words for you: You’re not
worth it.

With what happened
now, I wasn’t the one who invaded someone else’s privacy, messed up someone
else’s life, made a wrong impression of someone. As for me, my family, my real
friends and the rest of the faculty, we know that I have done nothing wrong. I
just accepted, took a risk, fought, stayed strong, cared and loved someone who
showed sincerity to have that one last chance. It is up to you to judge me according
to what you have seen and heard. I wasn’t supposed to explain, you should not
have seen those anyway but since someone is rude enough to mess on someone else’s
life then it is still my concern coz I was the victim yet I still get the
credit of having all the consequences. If you still consider yourselves as my
friend? Let’s do each other a favor, instead of bragging about what happened?
Just learn to fight with me.

As said by a friend
“She wont stick to your level NOT because she’s
weak rather it’s because she’s young and mature enough to handle “older”
insecure people like you!”

btw, with what you’re doing right now might be successful on making me cry, but did you know that you’re just making me stronger to just wipe it all off and laugh?. Eniwei, i have something for you stupid stranger, hope you like it. :)                                 

*mmmwah!

Other than this, I
have nothing else to say… What about you?

After
my past relationship, I never wanted
another up-to-the-minute someone, there wasn’t a time when I wished for
a new
man, by no means, I didn’t want to be in another relationship again. A
part of a song that i used to sang before: “Someday we’ll know why I
wasn’t meant for you”, like her I
used to question everything, question why I kept on loosing the things
that I
loved the most. I believed, searched, waited and prayed. God said, “no
need to
wait any longer my dear..” now, I have
the answer, right in my arms, straight in front of me, the answer to my
questions, a man that was meant for me, someone real, someone who’ll stay,
someone who appreciates, someone named Enrico.

When I’ve decided to welcome this new guy in my life, I knew the
complications of risking, thought of the consequences for having someone with
such a name, realized all the insecurities of other people who’ll do anything
and everything to make me feel miserable. It all happened. Thou, some people
still and won’t stop on making up stories, LIES, ways, gossips that
could lead to a break up. But to all the people who have been wishing, praying
to break us apart, I’m sorry but try to look for a more effective wishing well
you could ever look for, be sure to pray to the entire saints and angels you
know coz people, we AREN’T breaking up.
Try to break us? We’ll only grow stronger, together. So just don’t dare.

It has been 100 exact days since I met him, 100 happy
days, 100 days since I loved him and yet still looking forward to the
next thousand more days with him.

I loved you yesterday not as much as I love you
today but less than tomorrow.

HAPPY
100^th DAY MY ENRICO!

I Love You!

I was born normal, I was
raised with values, I’ve been surrounded by the most educated teachers in town
and I was trained enough to be strong. Those were some of my experiences that
made me what I am today.

I was never born to
intentionally get hurt by just someone, by people and by a so-called love.
Our hearts has wings and it can fly.. but our hearts always have the choice,
either to stay in the hands of someone special or not. And so I did made my
decision, as what "the rock" used to say.. you proved them
right and you confirmed me wrong - "and that’s the bottom line."

I lost my family, their
trust, a friend, my house; my education for someone I thought was mine
all along. You’re heart was something I thought I owned, somewhat assumed that,
that was my advantage.

I fought for something
regardless to what or to whom I struggle with. I thought It was all worth it. I
was willing to sacrifice; I was the one who has the eager to wait. I was the
one who was ready to fight and oh-yeah, I thought I was the one.

When
you love someone, the moment you felt the feeling, from the time you sensed
that he/she is special, NEVER EVER miss the opportunity and the chance to tell
it to him/her. If you grab the chance and you’re ready to tell him/her how you
feel, say it BUT MEAN IT. NEVER take advantage of someone,
specially the love she/he is willing to offer. NEVER use someone just for your
own sake and just for something you feared of not having. If you love someone
tell it to HIM/HER and not to the one who was willing to tender his/her
happiness just for you to conceal what you really feel for the OTHER. You
will just hurt him/her.

To light and guard, PLEASE pray for me. I’m here alive and kicking thou
I have nothing to do but to hope coz I am again, broken.. Hoping to regain everything I lost because of fighting for the one whose been pretending that I’m-his-everything. Hopefully, just like before.. I will recover, be stronger, smarter and be blessed not for the one but for the REAL ONE.

"A real solider should
know when to fight his/her right but know when to surrender." And so now I
raise my white flag..  I now surrender, I have to give up.

Unanswered questions will still and forever remain,
"how could you loose someone you never had?"

Right
now I have to regain myself and pull through everything that’s been happening.
I need to recover that once-in-a-lifetime trust given to me by my parents. I
love you but I love my family. At this moment only GOD knows what’s best for
me, for you and for us. Time will pass and it will tell if you really belonged
to me and if you were really worth fighting for.

-It’s me.. again. Yvonne.

It hurts to hear stories from people who doesn’t even know my situation. When they base everything sa nakikita ng dalawang mata nila, they don’t even think na, MAYBE there’s more than what they just saw. They say, "magiging masaya kame para sayo" but then pag talikod q, all I hear are issues, gossips and bullsh*ts. It is so hard to live in your own world but still dictated by just some STRANGERS who doesn’t even know me that well. As if they know what I’ve been and what I’m going through. You can’t say just ignore them. I’m already being stabbed at my back, dq pwedeng basta hayaan nlng un.

If I did hurt someone, somebody, your friend, your brother, etc. then I’M SORRY, I just hope you guys know na "I never intended to hurt someone, anyone.. never.”

If you don’t like what I’m doing or my actions right now, tell it to me.. straight. Hindi yung sa likod ko pa kayo naninira. Why can’t you just be happy for me huh? bakit kailangan nio pa akong kweschunin, dicatahan at pangunahan? geez, LET ME BE THE ONE TO CHOOSE i am doing the best I can para walang masaktan. tsk.

Try to be happy for me especially if you call yourself my friend or whatever. I am too sick and tired. Gusto ko lang maging masaya. Respeto lang sana sa mga decisions na ginagawa ko.

Thanks for reading. Have a great day.

Have you reached the point in your life were you suffered, sacrificed, loved so much but ended up as unappreciated? abused?broken?

What if you got hurt so bad then someone new comes along? would you still risk the same trust as before? would you give it a chance? would you allow your heart to fall again? would you let him/her fix whatever it is that has been torn apart? How would you knoe if your ready? How much time do you need to be able to recover?

Love has never been easy, it has never been fair. Rather, it has always been about the superiority of pride and anger. Hmm, if every love would just be like that, then I hate love. Am I a rebel? haha, not really. I’m just tired. =)

God has been soo good to me ever since, blessed my family, blessed me for giving me my friends, gave me answers and strengths, options, reasons and everything. Yes, I am content but incompelete.

To everyone whose been helping me with everything I’m going through, thank you so much. <3

Guess, we’ll just see.. we’ll never know.

It has been the toughest month for me. I lost, loved, cried, laughed, suffered, hurt, jealous, cared, abused, took for granted, enjoyed, smiled, etc. Truly, I should have expect the unexpected. It has been so hard for me. I had to give up the life that I’ve been used to and something I fought for a year or two for the reason that  i-just-cant-take-it-anymore. It did hurt a lot but its the only way I could breathe..

I never ever wanted to hurt or make someone suffer just because of me, but I had to save my self from falling unto an open space where there was supposed to be someone to catch me as I fall. I needed to seek and look for my own way to be able to survive and that’s why I chose to let go.

The irony of life, at often times we have to say goodbye once in a while to someone for them to realize how special you are, but then, why’d you have to wait? Never ever take someone for granted because the truth is? NO ONE WAITS FOREVER. I’ve decided to go away for a while, I’ll try to recover, put the pieces back together, search for myself again, try look and regain my strength, understand my worth and yes, I will try to smile again.

To all the people that have helped me get thru everything for the past 2 weeks, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH for being there for me.

Barbiedoll, Emoboi, Asper, Hena, Steph, Ron, Mowan, Kai, Mic, Jerome and to Mr. Joemari KilapKilap sorry for all the trouble and THANK YOU for everything.

-Yvonne

The time was around 1:30 in the afternoon of a Tuesday. I just came from school in Makati. I was on my way home..

One snap, with the blink of an eye, another bus bumped into our bus. Directly towards the window side were i was sitting. the glass were broken into pieces and would you know? i could have been dead by now. For some minutes, my life was placed in the hands of no one. Nobody had the control of what had happened, except God. It was a live-or-die moment, luckily he made me chose what i wanted. It left me with some scratch but fortunately, the angels were at my side and best of all i still have my life to live with.

bottomline: no matter how lucky, special, blessed, rich, poor you are right now, with one split second, with a single change of view.. you can die.

*be careful with yourselves, you may not know it but even if there are people who doesn’t kiss you, hug u, greet you hi-hello or help you everytime you need them be thankful coz believe me, i know they do care for you a whole lot more than you expect.*

God Bless everyone.  Thank you & remember, i love you.

oh yes! they do come back. it may not be as what you’ve been expceting to, but s0me0ne is capable of putting the pieces back t0gether..

I really had a very good day today. Thanks to you. i hope u wer happy too. I saw and felt a lot of smiles in my face. how bout u? had a lot of smiles too? so so happy. =D

i love you.  i do do-do-doo! =)